SO. SO. Anyone who is anyone who is anyone knows I'm manic OBSESSIVE. I'm trying to find a PB, it's for a book series that started with the book Angus, Thongs, and Full-Frontal Snogging, and recently finished with a total of 10 books. SO. I want to play the main character, Georgia. And I need someone to play her. D8 There is a movie but. Fffff. ANYHOW.

If anyone out there wants to help me out HERE ARE MY CHOICES. There is a character description and everything if you don't know her (which most won't) 8D;;

Right now, I'm stuck between Talulah, Kat, and Kate. 8| Talulah is probably best overall, Kat is a good fit with the best figure, and Kate seems to have the best teenage look there.

So so! I'm working through my EIIIIIGHT classes and thinking about adding another don't kill me, but hopefully I can drop two when I talk to the dean of the department I can cut it down.

I've been having a lot of fun Rping Ella. I was really worried about her for a while and was even going to drop her, but I'm a lot more secure with her voice now. |D~ That commanding thing really has endless possibilities.

MY CREATIVE WRITING TEACHER IS SUPA CUUUTE and adorkable and I love him. XD I may like that class as much as my film classes, if not more.

So here are my classes:

Radio Broadcasting & Production (Film teacher, prof swagger ♥)
Intro to Sociology (THIS TEACHER IS CRAZY FFFFFF)
Western Lit (re-taking)
Creative Writing (CUTE FACE)
History of African American Film (prof swagger)
Modern Lit (re-taking)
Video Production (prof swagger)
Fundamentals of Filmmaking (prof swagger)

I HAVE HOMEWORK TO DO AND AND AND A VIDEO I SAID WAS DONE AND IT'S NOT AND MAKE UP WORK AND FAKIR'S REAPP. SO. *flees* ~~~~~/o/

I got my Feuer Fest Tutu Doujinshi made by mangaka_chan in the mail today, and it's simply LOVELY. The art has so much depth and she has this way of balancing realistic and stylistic details into her art. I mean, I saw it online, and normally I'm a cheap bastard, but it's just soooo much more wonderful up close and with all the fantastic screentoning and the extra little comics in the back~ It was extremely professional, which I value highly in fanmade things. I especially love the characterization of Fakir and Raetsel in it, and Pique. Idk why, but they stood out to me. XD And Ahiru looked so very cute.

Anyway, anyone else who bought it, come gush with me! And if you see this, Mangaka, I loved it, truly! It really brightened the day of this grumpy production assistant. ♥

In a completely unrelated note, boy needs to HEEL. And Lj needs to fix their notifs. B| And I really need to restart this computer, it's lagging HORRIBLY.

Yayayayayay, school starts up again on Monday. 8| But only not yay. I have 8 fucking classes, can you believe that shit? It's not even my fault this time.

I had 5 classes I wanted to take, just 5. The 4 communications classes I haven't taken yet that they offer: Radio Broadcasting and Production, Video Production (which is a class where you make a documentary), Fundamentals of Filmmaking (where you make a narrative film -- not the same as a documentary; essentially making a movie, where as my class last semester I made a TV/news kind of video), and History of African American Film. Then, I wanted to take Creative Writing. I think that's not so bad of a course load--going from 7 classes to 5 so I don't die. But when signing up for classes, History of African American film was closed. Fine, I figured, that's alright, I'll take a language instead, I've been meaning to catch up on my French anyhow. I didn't end up signing up for French, though, because of reasons following:

Upon looking at the degree, they require 2 social sciences. So I've taken Psychology 101 and Abnormal Psychology 209. In the old system, when I was a liberal arts major, that was fine. But in the new, constantly revamped system, for the Communications Degree, they don't accept Abnormal Psych, only Psych 101, 102, and Early Childhood development. WHY Abnormal Psych would be less credible for a COMMUNICATIONS degree than looking at the brains of hellspawn, I have no idea. All I know is it's bullshit and it forced me to sign up for ANOTHER social science. So I added Sociology 101. That put me at 5.

But, I had 2 English classes that I got incompletes in. I haven't finished the work for them yet, but the incompletes eventually turned into Fs. So I signed up for both of the classes that I failed, and emailed both professor asking if I could still turn in the work. I'm hoping both will tell me yes, so I can drop them like its hot, but if they don't...I'm taking the exact same classes with the exact same professors, and you bet your ass I'm reusing that work like what if I can't be in the Shakespearean Lit class I would have preferred. 8|

That put me at 7 FULL classes, not like GYM, FULL classes with WRITING and EDITING and FILM SHIT. But wait, there's more. I run into my AWESOME film teacher, and she's like "lol, I'll put you in the African American Film class if you want. They made the class limit crazy low for some reason, all you've got to do is ask!" And I LOVE her and she's SUPER nice and awesome and I really wanted to take the class. ._.

So here I am, 8 classes, with a schedule that starts at 8:30 am and ends at 8:35 pm on Mondays. And way more work with my producers and with my club. Fuckydoo.

As a bonus, my boyfriend does not have a cellphone because his battery won't charge and he hasn't gotten a new one yet, which means his mom is constantly calling me to reach him, and I HAVE NO WAY OF TALKING TO HIM EITHER. I'm always polite, but FUCK, that shit is NOT cool, lady. Don't call me 3 times within an hour asking where he is. HE DOES NOT HAVE A CELLPHONE, HOW COULD HE HAVE REACHED ME? Plus, his friend is too chickenshit to call him at his house because his mom scares him so he always asks me if I know where he is. I am not attached to this boy at the hip. I do not have a tracking device on him. You HAVE his facebook. In fact, I can go several days without hearing from him and it makes no difference to me because I like my independence (HE is the opposite, in fact). It is a fucking PAIN and a PEST, and I do not want to be an extension of another person. Do not call me asking me about how he is. Call him yourself.

And I'm sick of people bitching about the cold or whatever. Big fucking WHOOP. It is WINTER. Then summer rolls around and everyone bitches about the heat (unless it's lame like last summer). Just enjoy snow and whatever while it's here, it's not like it's here year round. You can't make snow angels on a patch of daisies. 8| If you want to be warm, move to the damn tropics, fuck.

And I'm going to go raid icons now. 8|

A to-do list for my short ass break!

( The list goes on and on my friend... )

I'm almost done with like skolliwoll, o my bratties. I'll expect that these sentences smot a lomtick strange, but not to worry, I have all my rassodocks about me I'm simply writing in 'Nadsat', the language of A Clockwork Orange (in both the sinny and the book). This entry is dedicated to my sinny teacher, the right choodessny cheena who gave your humble narrator an extension on nearly all of my assignments, including my sinny analysis of A Clockwork Orange, 15 page script, and a make up of a final, to the very last day where grades are due. I was pretty spoogy of failing all of her classes, something I'd deserve, and something I earned in at least 1 or 2 other classes for being gloopy, and also due to veshches beyond my control. But I'd be a nazz to smot a gift horse in the rot and this raz I will not fail her because she is quite bolshy and probably odin of the nicest damas I've met. So have patience with like me, I'll be dobby and finish my rabbit until Monday, and then I'll be happy to give all of my droogs my raz.

And all of this govoreet really makes me want to roleplay as Alex, have an actual British chelloveck for once.

*cue freakout*

Didn't work on the interview video for my Production Company when it was due TWO DAYS AGO.

Didn't work on this tribute video that has massive amounts of importing and cutting and streamlining needed.

Didn't even get any (past, present, or future) homework done.

I spend a better part of my Friday napping, bathing, fooling around with Cosmos, looking at editing software/lights on ebay/absolutely nothing.

My producer, Paul, keeps calling and I keep hiding and not answering. ._. Should I bite the bullet and call back and say I'm just not done yet? What do you guys think?

A small to do list which leaves out about 50 things and only has essentials:
1. Finish Kali/Leighton interview video.
2. Call Paul.
3. Finish importing footage for tribute video.
4. Streamline and figure out length.
5. Call Alverson about the music, then give Aunt Marva a call about length and flow.
6. Begin to color correct and edit clips that need it.
7. Import B-Roll footage and get an instrumental of Bittersweet Symphony.
8. Try to get to all those other things that need to be done but haven't earned a space on this list.

*deep breath*

So that camera I wanted? I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT I GOT IT LAST NIGHT AND IT'S BEAUTIFUL. ;o;

I eventually got a camera for the club, but it was really nothing special. It was good to have for club purposes, and an end all be all kind of camera, but the quality wasn't that great. So I'd been salivating over THIS little beauty and I saw it for a good price refurbished by THE most reputable photo and video store in the tristate area AND MOM BOUGHT IT FOR MEEEEE~

I was/am doing this video filming for some tribute thing, and I was borrowing a friend's panasonic camera...but then started acting funny and it wasn't recording and stuff, but because I'm always prepared, I had my Film Club's camera on me. And Mom went, "It's really bad that you only have one camera. I'd drive you out to B&H now if you didn't have class." So I rushed off and showed her the camera I wanted and rolled and then forgot about it. I assumed she did too. UNTIL IT SHOWED UP LAST NIGHT. \o\ \o/ /o/ The only thing I wish it had was more memory, but that's a minor vice since I plan on getting a nice SD car---HOLY SHIT 32 GB IS $70 AT THE CHEAPEST.

...*goes on ebay and gets one for $20 \o.*

Anyhow. I still haven't finished the video I need to do for my producer, I'm going to work my ass off for a few hours then roll to his house and hope he doesn't flay me alive. =D

I SHALL NAME MY CAMERA COSMOSis Jones BECAUSE IT SAYS CMOS AT THE TOP AND SHE'S BEAUTIFUL. T^T

Hey, I'm not dead! Keeping up with a journal is too hard if it's constant recap, but let's just say number 1 and number 3 from my last post have EXPOUNDED EXPONENTIALLY. (i.e. school work/film work/etc and being +1 bf. :o)

I actually have a video due to my producer tonight, but I'm touching base and giving a shout out to everyone on my f-list (lololol I wrote f-lust) and asking how you guys are! The day before the most hateful holiday, I hope you guys have a good one and I want to get back in the habit of using this.

It's almost kind of, well it IS silly, but I've spent most of my weekend in three states of mind.
( this ended up way longer than expected )
But anyway. That's been where I'm at of late. 8D;;; WHAT ABOUT ALL OF YOU?

I got really upset after class for a stupid argument during Mass Communications & Popular Culture with a classmate about some nonsense and called her a hypocrite to her face when the teacher pulled us aside after the class. I don't know if I've become more sensitive or something after dad died, but it seems like it takes less to set me off these days. I just know it seemed to be a culmination of me being stressed out. I'm not behind, really, I'm staying on top, but I'm stressing out even as I do that.

Still working on the trailer for my production company. Still haven't gotten film club stuff squared away and I just found out that the idea I had for a fundraiser some other club (an extremely annoying club, I might add) is doing. Still having ideas for films.

( filmmaking raaaant )

I might be starting up a webcomic with a friend! She and I (and one other) had an idea for one way back in highschool that we fleshed out and talked about all the time but never executed. And we were just talking about how much we missed it and how we never completed it. So we're dusting it off and updating things like horribly silly plotlines birthed in our teenage minds. Jon will probably draw it because, as busy as I am, if we have to wait for me, it'll never go up and I admit this willingly. (He made the original character designs anyway.)

And half of my tri-annual laundrathon is complete! 8D

Okay! I am feeling somewhat better! So I'm going to work now. \o.

OH KANYE. ♥

Edit: Okay, because I feel like clarifying here. I rarely ever watch award shows, let alone the VMAs, but I happened to be watching with friends and honestly that one moment made it all worth it.

( ramble about vmas beneath cut )

A looot has happened since last posting here. I've been doing film crap, rp crap which drains me to no end, my dad died, people visited, school started, friend bullshit rampaged as always. I went to see the Phantom of the Opera a couple of days ago! And I loved it, if not for the main characters.

Mostly occupying my thoughts have been plans for films and stories, which is reaaaaally rare for me. I like to think that dad dying gave me motivation and inspiration. I'm also supposed to be working on a trailer for my production crew's movie and I recently thought up an idea for a zombie Jesus movie for film club.

I AM TAKING 7 CLASSES/20 CREDITS. No, I don't know what's wrong with me. IDK THIS IS A RAMBLE. I just wanted to post something.

But I do worry constantly about my dad's estate. I worry about mom paying for school and all sorts of things. So much of those sort of things and the work I have to do, that I can't even concentrate on the childish bullshit friends are pulling.

I picked up a new character! Ella from the book Ella Enchanted. I love her, but I'm afraid to rp. I'm afraid its been too long and that I'm out of place there now. I wonder if I should just drop everyone, really. Maybe I need a canon review with all of them. OTHER THAN ELLA. I got that shit on lock. 8D

I think To-dos are kinda pointless right now. So I'm just going to try my best at what I can. WISH ME LUCK, SHANKS AND HOS. o_ob

So! I am attempting to finish a 20 page script for a movie, and I still don't know what topic I'm doing. I also have a 2 page research journal entry from the perspective of Mr. Brown from things fall apart, a 6 page research paper on anti-rape traps, which will require two hardcopy academic journals that I do not currently possess, a 6 page research paper on Oedipus and the role of fate, 3 pieces of artwork, plus, I need to finish Madame Bovary, read Wuthering Heights as well as Doll House, and read several chapters of my concepts in PE book. I need to email all of my professors with numerous apologies, and be prepared to slip at least 5 assignments in some mailboxes on Monday.

That being said, I don't wish to die anymore, so that's a good thing. I also finished my short script, which I'm told is humorous, so if anyone wants to see that~?

On the film front, I have about...4 things to pay attention to.
1. Figuring out the script and plot for Yager's story "Love Obituary" because everyone but him hates it, and he's not around.
2. Talking to the lady from Time Warner Cable about my possible summer internship. I just emailed her my resume.
3. Working with the production company of my brothers' friends, "Brotherhood Productions" for their film "Johnny's Leaving". Filming starts May 1st and I think he's coming over today to see some videos of mine. *nervous* ~_~
4. Making an outline and script for the project that was given to my club to do, namely making a promotional video for our college.

It's the last week of school. I kinda wish I could take a break from modding, but considering how many days I'll probably be gone for May, it's the least I can do.

I'm going to Anime Boston from May 21st to 25th, then right after I'm going to California until the 1st of June. I'm hoping to start looking for a job. I know a place in town hires, but they pay under the table and apparently the owners are mob bosses. Also, if the internship goes through and I'm doing filming and shit, I dunno how much time I'll have.

This is all assuming I don't have to repeat a class this summer. :|

SO! To all the people woe-ing on my f-list. Sami and Haley, hope your shit works out, love you both no matter what goes down, here is a chunk of love for your detached life Jackie, hurrah for dental problems getting solved Mangaka, hope your computer stops being a bitch, Kage, annnnnd, this is really late, but I hope your mom is fine, Tory. Because my friends coming over to keep me on task when I was ready to roll over and quit reemphasized the importance of being there for someone in their time of need.

...But today is not that day. ♥

Underlined means 'In Progress'.

( I'm addicted to stress it's the way I get things done )

There are no words.

I think acedia would be fitting now. But its too dispassionate. Then I think of ennui. But malaise is probably most fitting.

So I guess there are words.

We're having 4TH WALL DAY AT SORTING HAT!

Haaaaa, I haven't posted with Kid just yet because he will get flooded and I'm waiting but I made my post with Fakir HERE. Come harass him, with normal journals, character journals, anything!

21 years old!

And I've started it off great by being a fuck up.

*sigh*

EDIT: To give this entry a purpose:

01.) Full name?
02.) Best friend?
03.) Sexuality?
04.) Favorite color?
05.) Relationship status?
06.) Ideal mate?
07.) Turn-ons?
08.) Last sexual experience?
09.) Favorite food?
10.) Crushes?
11.) Favorite music?
12.) Biggest fear?
13.) Biggest fantasy?
14.) Quirks in bed?
15.) Bad habits?
16.) Biggest regret?
17.) Best kept secrets?
18.) Last thought?
19.) Worst sexual experience?
20.) Biggest insecurity?

Ask about any of my muses, past or present. =_=

I sent out a mass text message to friends saying, "Have a nice 'Pre-cursor to half-priced candy' day. =D"

And my friend Zamaniya imed me with:

aumilieudhiver: aawww. ur text was so sweet. may all your candy be cheap and taste like exploitation, as non fair trade chocolate usually is
astrobright68: XDDDDDDD
aumilieudhiver: so i'm watching the horror movie marathon on scifi.
astrobright68: Oh?
aumilieudhiver: they have some ASS movies. more ass than they ever were. if bad scifi movies are so bad I don't even want to watch them...sigh no hope for t.v.
astrobright68: Lots of people seem to watch horror movies on this holiday for some reason
aumilieudhiver: for me, saturday is awlays scifi movie day. but the others, they're just trying to coat the loniless and bitterness of being alone with a few cheap actors and gore
astrobright68: XDDDDDD
astrobright68: God
astrobright68: you're so funny
aumilieudhiver: its true. all the "i hate valentines day" bunnies. they should just go out, buy the cheap candy made with the blood of small children and get over it. i did that like yesterday. it tasted gooood.
astrobright68: XDDDDDD