It's almost kind of, well it IS silly, but I've spent most of my weekend in three states of mind.
( this ended up way longer than expected )
But anyway. That's been where I'm at of late. 8D;;; WHAT ABOUT ALL OF YOU?

I got really upset after class for a stupid argument during Mass Communications & Popular Culture with a classmate about some nonsense and called her a hypocrite to her face when the teacher pulled us aside after the class. I don't know if I've become more sensitive or something after dad died, but it seems like it takes less to set me off these days. I just know it seemed to be a culmination of me being stressed out. I'm not behind, really, I'm staying on top, but I'm stressing out even as I do that.

Still working on the trailer for my production company. Still haven't gotten film club stuff squared away and I just found out that the idea I had for a fundraiser some other club (an extremely annoying club, I might add) is doing. Still having ideas for films.

( filmmaking raaaant )

I might be starting up a webcomic with a friend! She and I (and one other) had an idea for one way back in highschool that we fleshed out and talked about all the time but never executed. And we were just talking about how much we missed it and how we never completed it. So we're dusting it off and updating things like horribly silly plotlines birthed in our teenage minds. Jon will probably draw it because, as busy as I am, if we have to wait for me, it'll never go up and I admit this willingly. (He made the original character designs anyway.)

And half of my tri-annual laundrathon is complete! 8D

Okay! I am feeling somewhat better! So I'm going to work now. \o.

OH KANYE. ♥

Edit: Okay, because I feel like clarifying here. I rarely ever watch award shows, let alone the VMAs, but I happened to be watching with friends and honestly that one moment made it all worth it.

( ramble about vmas beneath cut )

A looot has happened since last posting here. I've been doing film crap, rp crap which drains me to no end, my dad died, people visited, school started, friend bullshit rampaged as always. I went to see the Phantom of the Opera a couple of days ago! And I loved it, if not for the main characters.

Mostly occupying my thoughts have been plans for films and stories, which is reaaaaally rare for me. I like to think that dad dying gave me motivation and inspiration. I'm also supposed to be working on a trailer for my production crew's movie and I recently thought up an idea for a zombie Jesus movie for film club.

I AM TAKING 7 CLASSES/20 CREDITS. No, I don't know what's wrong with me. IDK THIS IS A RAMBLE. I just wanted to post something.

But I do worry constantly about my dad's estate. I worry about mom paying for school and all sorts of things. So much of those sort of things and the work I have to do, that I can't even concentrate on the childish bullshit friends are pulling.

I picked up a new character! Ella from the book Ella Enchanted. I love her, but I'm afraid to rp. I'm afraid its been too long and that I'm out of place there now. I wonder if I should just drop everyone, really. Maybe I need a canon review with all of them. OTHER THAN ELLA. I got that shit on lock. 8D

I think To-dos are kinda pointless right now. So I'm just going to try my best at what I can. WISH ME LUCK, SHANKS AND HOS. o_ob

So! I am attempting to finish a 20 page script for a movie, and I still don't know what topic I'm doing. I also have a 2 page research journal entry from the perspective of Mr. Brown from things fall apart, a 6 page research paper on anti-rape traps, which will require two hardcopy academic journals that I do not currently possess, a 6 page research paper on Oedipus and the role of fate, 3 pieces of artwork, plus, I need to finish Madame Bovary, read Wuthering Heights as well as Doll House, and read several chapters of my concepts in PE book. I need to email all of my professors with numerous apologies, and be prepared to slip at least 5 assignments in some mailboxes on Monday.

That being said, I don't wish to die anymore, so that's a good thing. I also finished my short script, which I'm told is humorous, so if anyone wants to see that~?

On the film front, I have about...4 things to pay attention to.
1. Figuring out the script and plot for Yeager's story "Love Obituary" because everyone but him hates it, and he's not around.
2. Talking to the lady from Time Warner Cable about my possible summer internship. I just emailed her my resume.
3. Working with the production company of my brothers' friends, "Brotherhood Productions" for their film "Johnny's Leaving". Filming starts May 1st and I think he's coming over today to see some videos of mine. *nervous* ~_~
4. Making an outline and script for the project that was given to my club to do, namely making a promotional video for our college.

It's the last week of school. I kinda wish I could take a break from modding, but considering how many days I'll probably be gone for May, it's the least I can do.

I'm going to Anime Boston from May 21st to 25th, then right after I'm going to California until the 1st of June. I'm hoping to start looking for a job. I know a place in town hires, but they pay under the table and apparently the owners are mob bosses. Also, if the internship goes through and I'm doing filming and shit, I dunno how much time I'll have.

This is all assuming I don't have to repeat a class this summer. :|

SO! To all the people woe-ing on my f-list. Sami and Haley, hope your shit works out, love you both no matter what goes down, here is a chunk of love for your detached life Jackie, hurrah for dental problems getting solved Mangaka, hope your computer stops being a bitch, Kage, annnnnd, this is really late, but I hope your mom is fine, Tory. Because my friends coming over to keep me on task when I was ready to roll over and quit reemphasized the importance of being there for someone in their time of need.

...But today is not that day. ♥

Underlined means 'In Progress'.

( I'm addicted to stress it's the way I get things done )

There are no words.

I think acedia would be fitting now. But its too dispassionate. Then I think of ennui. But malaise is probably most fitting.

So I guess there are words.

We're having 4TH WALL DAY AT SORTING HAT!

Haaaaa, I haven't posted with Kid just yet because he will get flooded and I'm waiting but I made my post with Fakir HERE. Come harass him, with normal journals, character journals, anything!

21 years old!

And I've started it off great by being a fuck up.

*sigh*

EDIT: To give this entry a purpose:

01.) Full name?
02.) Best friend?
03.) Sexuality?
04.) Favorite color?
05.) Relationship status?
06.) Ideal mate?
07.) Turn-ons?
08.) Last sexual experience?
09.) Favorite food?
10.) Crushes?
11.) Favorite music?
12.) Biggest fear?
13.) Biggest fantasy?
14.) Quirks in bed?
15.) Bad habits?
16.) Biggest regret?
17.) Best kept secrets?
18.) Last thought?
19.) Worst sexual experience?
20.) Biggest insecurity?

Ask about any of my muses, past or present. =_=

I sent out a mass text message to friends saying, "Have a nice 'Pre-cursor to half-priced candy' day. =D"

And my friend Zamaniya imed me with:

aumilieudhiver: aawww. ur text was so sweet. may all your candy be cheap and taste like exploitation, as non fair trade chocolate usually is
astrobright68: XDDDDDDD
aumilieudhiver: so i'm watching the horror movie marathon on scifi.
astrobright68: Oh?
aumilieudhiver: they have some ASS movies. more ass than they ever were. if bad scifi movies are so bad I don't even want to watch them...sigh no hope for t.v.
astrobright68: Lots of people seem to watch horror movies on this holiday for some reason
aumilieudhiver: for me, saturday is awlays scifi movie day. but the others, they're just trying to coat the loniless and bitterness of being alone with a few cheap actors and gore
astrobright68: XDDDDDD
astrobright68: God
astrobright68: you're so funny
aumilieudhiver: its true. all the "i hate valentines day" bunnies. they should just go out, buy the cheap candy made with the blood of small children and get over it. i did that like yesterday. it tasted gooood.
astrobright68: XDDDDDD

I think, if I hear one more thing about Harry Potter, Roleplay, and/or Sorting Hat in any form, I'll burst into tears and curl in a ball. That probably goes for Princess Tutu too.

*sighs* I've got soooo much to do. ._.

T H E N ↔ N O W

:o

Name any fandom/rp/anything and I'll answer these questions.

One True Pairing Ship:
Canon Ship:
"If this happens I'll stab my eyes with a fork" Ship:
"You're a sick bastard" Ship:
"I dabble a little" Ship:
"It's like a car crash" Ship:
"Tickles my fancy but not sold quite yet" Ship:
"Makes no canon sense but why the hell not" Ship:
"Everyone likes it but I just don't feel it" Ship:
"When all is said and done" Ship:

OH MY GOD.

thatsso_raven

WHERE ARE YOU SO I CAN LOVE ON YOU?

Ya'll...you need to browse tutudressing...he SLAYS ME. SLAAAAYS me. I'd give him a heart or two or three.

I'm a pretty shitty friend.

Ah well, win some, lose some.

And man, I have sooooo much to do. ~_~ *commits hari-kiri and leaves you with video*

This convo amused ME greatly, but anyone who is offended by mutilated shlongs and rape should probably stay away. And. You know. Save me the bitching later. :V
( *hahha say goodbye to your penis, asshole!* )

...Having mod chats when impatient and irritable = not smart.

I feel antsy and strangely not tired even though it's 6:45, so I will make a list of things to do before sleep.

1.Tags. ALL of them. And Mod work.
2. Tags for Tutu comm. Do it, faggot.
3. Read another chapter in "Things Fall Apart"
4. Read 1 chapter in Screenwriting book
5. Print out picture of Twiggy and begin sketching. Really. Do it.
6. Watch "Choke."
7. Walk the dog.
8. Begin to read first chapter in Human Sexuality.
9. Do something with imovie and the trailer assignment?
10. Email film club members asking them to send me their video clips. 8|

This is enough, since I won't actually get to it all. I believe I shall force myself to clean and/or do laundry today. /o/ And bless my lucky stars that Zim didn't manage to drag ME to Massachusetts.

I have had 3 big surprises today~

One was a GOOD and extremely shocking surprise. Ahahahahaha.

One was a HORRENDOUS surprise in the form of AN AVATAR LIVE-ACTION MOVIE. Mind you, I'm not an Avatar fan or anything, but...directed by M. Night Shyamalan??? With JESSE MCCARTNEY AS ZUKO? whut. WHUT.

Then one was kinda sobering. o_o I was reading an old Boondocks comic, and they mentioned something about Bob Jones University. Then I came across this. Not cool, man.

But yeah.

I think I'll hang out with Zim today. \o/

EDIT: KEANU REEVES IS SPIKE. There is no justice in the world. ._.

So I finished a book I was reading. Choke by Chuck Palahniuk. Its ending was highly ironic, and I do believe I learned more about sex from that book than any other. Highly recommended for those who can take an intelligent and highly dark comedy. Chuck Palahniuk also wrote Fight Club, so...yeah, it's along that kind of vein. There's a movie too, I downloaded it but I haven't watched it yet.

I started reading another book of his, Invisible Monsters about a fashion model whose face is horrendously disfigured in an accident and she's left incapable of speaking, but decided to take a break from the heavy cynicism by reading something else. Since ugly_kitties FINALLY watched Princess Tutu, I figured I'd do her a similar honor by finally reading Kamikaze Girls by Novala Takemoto. I can't remember anything from when I first started reading it so I figure I have to start at the beginning again. I also still have to finish the Treasury of Royal Scandals by Michael Farquhar because I'm more than half-way through and that shit is LOL-arious. XD Nothing is funnier than a bunch of royals screwing each other over.

For class, I presently have to read Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe and the motherfucking BIBLE. For Modern Lit and Western Lit respectively. I have to say I'm not pleased. My teacher was going on and on about how Things Fall Apart is the best novel of all time and how she wanted to marry the main character. Frankly, it might be a cultural difference since it was written 50 years ago about a tribe in Nigeria that probably takes place even before that, but...Okonkwo seems like a class A DOUCHEBAG. And perhaps something was lost in translation, but I can't look at this book as anything other than a requirement. And fuckydoo, the bible. All I'm going to say is the sooner we get past this shit, the better. I FAIL at the bible. And have no interest in reading it. Can't I escape religion anywhere? Please?

That aside, it seems as if the extra classes I took are going to be perfect for Film club, if those fools get their thumbs out of their asses. Writing for Film and TV and Digital Video Graphic Design. Writing for TV and Film is essentially a screenwriting class, and Digital Video Graphic Design is a lot of what I do for amvs and video editing, with some flash animation stuff mixed in. So I'm trying to make some minitrailers for the club show case on TUESDAY, ORZ. Meaning I need to write those scripts like...NOW. DX I signed on to act and edit, not to write! 8|

Speaking of writing, I'm officially in that...UFO awards...thing...for writing...fanfiction and shit. NO idea who'd nominate my piece of crap, but they sent me an email! Ahahaha~ /o/

I had a dream that mom was like "I'm going to help you become an entertainer." And I was like "YES. Now I'm going to diet and go on auditions and take voice classes and be talented!"

Man, that sucks to wake up from. ~_~

....

Still don't have my homework done. D: